[Hanny0915]

Just sharing, not trying to show off or what.

I am actually born in Malaysia and stayed with relative and moved to Singapore to stay with my parents during secondary. I grew up without my parents so I was always the introverted, the obedient kid that my relative would say. I have lots of questions running in my head but no one to ask. I do not have many male cousins of my age to play around with so internet was my best friend.

Due to my personality as the more decent guys in school, many girls would choose to be friends with me so I had many female friends. I think it was around Primary 4 when girls of that age start to wear singlet or kids bra was when I realised my curiosity level is beyond my imagination. I would always imagine how does girls' chest develop into boobs, how does it feel like, how does it look like. All of these were just unanswered questions in my head that I never revealed. It was in Primary 6 when we had spotcheck and one of my classmate got caught for having condom in his wallet. I only know condom is an adult thing so during our hangout, the other boys were questioning him about the condom. He mentioned his dad always carry one around so he just took one of it with him. The rest of the boys had a lot of questions but I just kept quiet listening.

When everyone left, it was just myself and him. He stuffed me a condom and a paper. He said, "you are probably shy to talk with others but I have the link to the best porn." That night when my relatives were all asleep was when I saw boobs and sex for the first time. The next day when my very close female friends, C, saw me and she asked, I heard that you and the gang were discussing about condoms, I didn't know you're interested in those. I told her I wasn't, cause rather than condom, I was more interested in her but I know we are still too young to do that. And that was the topic that was never touched on until UPSR was over. Just a week before the school term ended, I was told that my parents will bring me back to Singapore to stay.

I was a bit shocked so I called out C and told her about my move to Singapore, we were supposed to go to the same secondary school but now plans has changed. She told me that she wanna get me a gift so that I can remember her but I was thinking, I've been the decent guy all these while and I'm already going to Singapore, I should try my luck and I said, No need for gift, but if for remembrance, can I see and touch your boobs intead?